My UN-word 2014

For the record, I have tried and tried to fix the formatting of this post, but nothing is working for me right now.  Sigh.  So I am going to go ahead and link this to the un-word link, but continue to work on the formatting.  Not sure why no matter what I do, words are split, spacing is funny and font sizes are funky.  :(



I found this lovely little idea from The Nester. 



I have already changed my New Year's Resolutions from a list of shoulda.... 

which turns into coulda and woulda, to one-word that helps define my year. 



Now, The Nester and some of her friends are suggesting adding an UN-word to  the year.  Something you want to get rid of in your life.


Initially I was thinking, well this is easy.  



I could write a whole list of things that I want to get rid of: things about myself  that I would like to not be, or stop being or needs to be changed or could be      improved.  



If you need to go negative, I'm your girl.  



I am able  to see the flaws, focus on how it could have and should have been 

better.  What more could have been done.  What more I should have done.  



I am the best at obsessing about my own flaws and beating myself up for them.  

And in this rambling I came up with my UN-word of the year: UN-lack.



I know.  It's awkward.



And there is probably some dirty joke in there, or at least a rhyme to an 

inappropriate limerick.



Still, I'm sticking with it.



UN-lack.



Why is it that I can come up with a huge list of things that I lack?  

Why is it I can be so very hard on myself? 

Why is it so hard for me to see myself in a more positive light? 

Why is it so hard for me to see so many things in a positive light?



Most days, my cup runneth over.  Truly.  I do believe that, even if I forget it.



But the area that I feel needs the most time is me.   



The area that lacks the most is me.



Why am I not more organized?

Why can't I get more done in a day?

Why don't I remember more things?

Why can I not give my kids enough?

Why do I struggle to balance being a part-time 

stay-at-home-mom and two part-time jobs?

Why am I not a better friend, daughter, sister,

mother and wife?

Why do my kids seem to fight more when I am 

around than when I am not?

What if I am not teaching my kids enough?



See that list? It's only a partial one; but you can see, the overall theme is all 

that I feel I lack.



Maybe I do lack those things and more, but maybe, just maybe, I have more 

than I see for myself.  



Maybe I don't lack as much as I think I do.  



Perhaps, in this yearlong journey of trying to see myself, not for what I lack, but for the skills and strengths and gifts I have, I might actually believe in it.



Well, it's a start.



Here's to 2014: The Year of UN-LACK!